So...

Wow, I must have REALLY screwed up if it's taking hours for Katlyn to text back. Katlyn is my girlfriend, and right now? I think she's ignoring me. I can't say what happened, but now I'm depressed. I dunno. Wow. They say blogging to random strangers is supposed to help me feel better? I think they were lying. Like most people do when they want to make you shut up or feel better or protect themselves when it'll just wind up making everything worse in the end. Not so happy smiley. The normal me is happy. This is a new me that I'm disliking. The sad me. Being sad makes me feel like I've got nothing better to do but to brood, because trying to make things better never works out for me. I can't solve my own problems, but I can make everyone else happier. Don't get me wrong, I love making people smile! But for once I wish someone would return that favor. Normally, faking a smile works for me. Yeah. I tend to strech the truth a little, too. But at least I'm convincing. Anyway, guess when Katlyn text me back finally, I won't hide my frown. At least I'm truthful to her, right? You just can't lie to the person you love most.